being socially responsible

contrast title of this post to the pervious one. such irony!

today i paid (literally) a visit to this interesting doctor again. nice pun haha.

With internship and tuition demands, i've been keeping late nights. As usual, only a matter of time before my body breaks down.

given 2 days MC though i feel i only need a day. am told to stay at home to be "socially responsible". given the current H1N1 situation, even if i'm not H1N1 positive, i'd still infect people around me with other flu viruses that will cause them to have to stay home like me otherwise there'll be too many people with flu running around and it'll be difficult to single out H1N1 suspected cases. oh really? it works this way?

so anyway i welcome the rest.

but tmr is the date of my lecture that i've been preparing for. the first lecturing in my life. granted, i have given tutorials on lts, standing on podium before, but it's not the same! the mike, visualizer, ppt, and the sheer number of audience.

but i have to give it up. you know there are many unspoken things an intern has to tahan, and one of the things is the knowledge that they are not very important. more on that in the future, or maybe not. anyway, i'm given 2 days MC, my doc refuses to dispense just one day, so if i were to appear in school tmr, even if i pass the gate-check, my MC will reveal that i'm supposed to be home for 2 days, and hence prove my "social irresponsibility".

so i'm staying home tmr, giving up my lecture slot, and the days of research and work of collating the information and presenting them in ways that will be understood by the students. sent over all i've done, hopefully it helps the teacher taking over the lecture.

somehow, i feel defeated. this post is indirectly linked to the previous one. go figure.

for the record, i'm not running a fever. just some swollen tonsils and blocked nose. oh plus a very tired mind.