Month-sary (photo diarrhoea part 1)

Photos for your pleasure.

The sequence is jumbled because i uploaded them in this odd order and blogger's alignment sucks. Disgusted.

Anw, for monthsary the man brought me to the Crabmeat Linguine place for fine dining.

I was blindfolded and had to guess the place he was bringing me to, but i haven been there before so of course i dunno. am touched by his effort. :)

Portobello mushroom dish looks like a pile of shit but is damn nice!

okay bye.

activities

*edited

• went to Sentosa and had the most relaxing day i had in months. Luge-skyride x2, Extreme Logride, Desperados, pizza and the beach. Shiznitz.
• Mustafa just because i want to
• indian naan and chicken tikka masala (possibly spelt wrongly)
• lots of night meet-ups and car conversations
• the cheesecake i never got around to making
• our little book he never has yet to complete
• Timbre @ old school
• No Signboard Seafood with my family and oh fireworks in the sky from ndp NE show
• first dinner at his place
• ktv-ing
• BBQ @ ECP
• impromptu cable car ride
• night blading
• dessert at ice cube

Did we do anything else? I'm logging everything down because i'm afraid i cannot remember if when my STM gets me.

<3>

Dinosaur

Hi!

I lived the life of a semi HDB-tai tai today. HAHAHAH.

I'm going to blog about my boyfriend, so err i'm very sorry ah this blog is gonna be one of those lovey-dovey blogs that i used to shun. But wtf i am in love, so deal with it! Now i totally understand why some girls cant stop blogging about their partners. Because hey, we wanna blog down the nice (and sometimes not so nice) details about our relationships. Helps me tide through difficult times, like maybe i can look back 3 months later when problems start seeping in and think "oh actually he is such a nice boyfriend". :/

More importantly, because i have STM, i really wanna remember and be thankful for the sweet things he has done for me. I'm not boasting, i know every relationship is different, but because this is my blog, i would like to have a record of the happenings of this relationship. Anw, if i don blog about him i have nothing much to blog about because i have no life (apart from him) at this present time. God i just allowed myself to sound like a useless vase. No way i must outsmart him! :)

I have largely avoided blogging about him because haha i am a loser i am afraid our relationship won't see tmr den the blogosphere (you, you and YOU reading this! *points fingers) will laugh at me while i wallow in self-pity. HAHA. But now i feel confident enough to erm blog about him because firstly, we're more stable, and secondly, scared this scared that then don't go into a relationship lah! So yes, i shall blog about him from now on. Including the bad/sad/unhappy stuff okay. So baby, it's part and parcel of a relationship, don't take it personally if i ever announce here that i feel like gorging out your eyeballs. :D

Okay so back to the story of me being a tai tai. Because today he has his car stolen from him for a day, the poor man has to endure a long mrt ride to the office. So he decided to drop by my place with mac breakfast. "Drop by" sounds simple right? Actually no. He had to take circle line to Bishan mrt only to drop at Admiralty mrt to buy macs for my whole family hhaahhahaha to gain points before walking all the way from the mrt to my house. The route is actually walkable i used to walk that thing everyday until i got too spoilt and would rather be stuck late just waiting for the feeder bus to bring me one stop away wtf (*ashamed*). So yes he brought breakfast for parents, sister, aunt, and us. Wow i think i have never bought breakfast for my WHOLE family at one shot before. Anw yes i had to trudge out of bed to open the door for him, and then wash up and enjoy my breakfast. Le sigh. Bliss. Of course he could not stay long, he had to go to work so he left my house again about 45mins later. So short but so sweet. /shy.

Yeah so after he left i retreated back to my bed to read CLEO and nap until past 12pm. Then i finally see the need to get out of bed so here i am! Teleported to the factory blogging and err waiting for lunch. I love coming to the factory because this place is where i am loved. I come here when i'm bored, unhappy, or i just come here to while my time away happily. This place is like a second home to me. Not to mention the good food readily available. :)

Great i just realised i sidetracked again.

Who would have thought that i would date an engineer? HAHA i used to laugh at how geeky engineers are. Shhh. But. He is good at what he does. I really admire him for it. I wanna see him at work one day just so i can swoon. But i figure i never will because hai what excuse do i have to go to his office during official working hours? Mommy says engineers are not romantic but i beg to differ! He just hmm needs to learn. In fact he's quiteeee romantic lah. Pass lah.

Everyone in my family refers to him as my "first boyfriend". It's quite funny actually. Because he really is not. But i guess in a way, my family sees that i am serious enough in this relationship, so they acknowledge it. I like that within ur first week, we have seen each other's parents. Of course, when family is in the know, the stakes are higher, stress too. But all for the good reasons. I hope.

When i went to visit my ahma yesterday, Mommy told her about him. Ahma just smiled and hahaha said that she's happy because marry engineer won't suffer financially. ERRR. hmmm. Really?

my very own

I was bathing and it suddenly crossed my mind how my life a month ago is so different from my life now.

Fast forward even more, how my life 6 months ago is so so so so so so (6 times, get it?) different from now. 6 months ago, hmmm. I just started Year 2 sem 2, and was not really studying as i was busy preparing for my 21st birthday bash at Aloha Loyang. I must have been all eggcited, oh and prolly forgetting my timetable in the first month of school ahaha wtf i am such a loser.

1 month ago i must have just finished my exams. Must have been bumming around. Or burying myself at the factory with admin work and potato skins. A romantic relationship was the last thing on my mind.

Look where i am now. Internship. Office wear. Office politics. Waking up and ungodly hours. And...Someone creeped his way into my life so fast i din't even have enough time to ponder and put up defense. I promised myself not to blog about him until some time later when the dust has settled but my heart's bursting with emotions, my brain with information.

But i am still not gonna blog about him per se. So i can only talk in cyptic circles wahahhaa.

I wake up every morning amazed that i have this person to love. I look forward to our sms-es, our calls, and our meet-up. The egoistic solitary loner in me who has gotten used to living life alone is now discovering the joys of sharing my life with this person, and in turn playing a part in his life.

When it comes, it really comes. :)

as cryptic as possible because the time is not right

I can't decide if i should follow my instinct and leanings, or further mediate my actions and decisions.

Of course i have reservations, isn't the whole thing about a spontaneous leap of faith? But my faith feels ungrounded. Okay not totally ungrounded but not grounded enough. But if i feel that now is the time,why hold back?

Today is an eventful day. I went to teach my tuition kids (they are so adorable!) and then before i stepped into my gym my mom called and told me to go to factory to say hello because i haven been there for awhile (really! Not that i'm lazy to exercise. okay actually i am, so serve me right for being fat) , then accompanied my mom to go get her hair cut by my newfound hairdresser, before rushing for my facial appointment at AMK. Like that, and i'm tired already. So here i am typing this entry in the comfort of my home. Home sweet home indeed.

So anyway, the previous paragraph was not totally irrelevant,... My point is, despite being occupied, someone crossed my mind for a few times. Even though we weren't in contact much today. I'm not used to feeling like that. It almost feels like i've lost control of my heart.

I've never been a needy partner, because i believe firmly in each party having his/her own space. But this time round, i keep thinking of him. To the point of being clingy. Wtf? Me? Clingy? That's a first. If this is part of falling in love, than i certainly need to pull back and fall slower. Just so i am clear about where i'm headed.

I really dunno if i should be posting this. I guess i'll try. Will take this down if i get too many questions.

Before Liu left for Brisbane, the three of us buddies went for a walk at the bridge thing. I forgot what the name's called. But i rem we went past Henderson Waves. I really feel like talking a walk there tonight. I dunno if it's the place or the company i had the last time i was there. But i miss the place. I need that kind of serenity now.

sms that made me smile!

I went to Malaysia ytd. Went in at 3 plus, returned back to Singapore just after midnight.

Malaysia is awesome i tell you! The food's good and cheap, and more importantly, the place is alot more spacious. You can totally shop in peace at the shopping malls because no one will jostle or irritate you at all. Besides, you can wear super slack clothes and have no worries about possibly meeting a friend and be judged. It's like being able to shop at orchard in shorts and slippers, minus the squeeze and exhorbitant prices.

That said, i din't have much time to shop because by the time we finished dinner at Restoran Todak and got to Jusco Tebrau City, the shops were already closing. I only managed to grab some KATE eye make-up and a Marjolica something mascara that is so awesome. No more panda eyes!

Oh and i bought alot of daily necessities at Jusco. Things i need but haven found time to restock. It was like shopping at NTUC back home lah, nothing different. Just that in Singapore, i never have the luxury to roam the whole supermarket, look at almost every item and go "hmmm do i need this?" Haha, so yes. I have 3 month supply of everything i need now. =)

Oh my title. The sms. It was an sms from my boss at the tuition agency. Ytd morn, we were talking about my experience and trauma of waking up so freaking early every morning for the past week. She was an ex-teacher before she decided to step out and open her own tuition agency so i can seek her advice on most things. But we got interrupted by a stream of parents enquiring about the holiday extra lessons so i had to leave b4 we finished the conversation. She was damn nice! Msg-ed me to apologize for it, and commented tt i looked good in the long skirt i was wearing yesterday.

Now about the long skirt. Ronns and Jeanie can vouch, i never touched long skirts at all until recently. Skirts, to me, should be short. Haha okay sound like a bitch now. Yes but the recently collection of long skirts is to portray the more shu nu look for teaching. Initially seeing myself clad in long skirts in front of the mirror was damn weird, very not me. But i have since gotten used to it and quite like wearing them. Addictive! Ronns and Jeanie, we can look the same in school from now on. Haha.

Okay bubbye.

i.am.so.sleepy

I teared when i watched this video.

http://www.teachermovie.com

Please watch it too.

of the heart

When i hear the ALMOST PARADISE~! song on TV, my heart leaps! I get so excited dammit what's wrong with me. Omg lah what's wrong with me. And i keep thinking about the drama, like random touching scenes. Ji Hoo, Jun Pyo and Yi Jung. I went to wiki, and found out that Kim Bum, who played Yi Jung, is one year younger than me omg. The rest are only 2-3 years older. SO YOUNG and they can act like rich men so well omg omg omg.

I am irritating my family members by randomly going "Yi Jung sumbae!"/ "sumbae"/ "Gu Jun Pyo"...etc.

peace.

5 mins of simple peace and joy.
drinking Can B hot milo the way i most love to: with a straw.
and blowing bubbles into the cup. :D


childish, but it worked.
lifted my spirits.
even if just for awhile.


there is too much to say
we end up saying nothing

to my companions in sch

Jean and Sharon.

I just wanna say thank you for taking care of me around in sch.
for noticing that i am dazed today
the numerous subway cookies (yum!)
the quiet concern
esp today luh.
it's always u girls waiting for me to finish my stuff.
print my notes and wadeva.
remindin me about lesson venues and everything.
for many many more little acts of friendship. :)

u girls know wad i mean lah. eeee very mushy.
i cannot say out in person leh. haha shyy.
haha so sharon, u may wanna direct jean to this post.
:)

Writing liberates me. like, really.
(:

mommy bought me my necklace.
18K white gold.
i din't know such things are so expensive.
hmmmm.
she chose it for me, she put it in for me.
my mommy nv does such stuffs.

after all that has happened at home,
i can see how much mommy loves my sister and i.

but i'm gonna go hostel stay le...
awwwww.

of beads, faith and some other random nonsense. :]

After a long day in school yesterday, i was shagged and unhappy.
Alright not unhappy but not happy.
Until the subject of faith came up... and he asked..

"I've always wondered...
do u still haf yr bead?
coz i still haf mine... "

That got me smiling. I'm really glad.
cus yes i still have mine too. :)
hahaha faith...
i do hope we have enough.

Then again, things come and go.
We'd nv know what may strike.
We'll just hope for the best and be realistic.
yeapp.

I wasn't supposed to go for the BBQ steamboat with ROMAI last night.
I promised someone i won't, cus i need rest.
BUT. Alex was driving and it's so tempting.
So i disappointed someone and...
left house for sch!! I went and i had fun! lol.
Yong Si and Alan's "private balcony".
wah lao so happening i also wanna stay hall luh!
Thank you Alex for driving me. :)

okay what other nonsense can i put up here? hmm.
I happen to have free time today cus lecture's cancelled due to Union Day.
muahahah! But i have a tutorial later at 3.30pm.
Then i'm watching HairSpray with my sister for FREE!
weee!
but awww i've been staying out late every single day. hmm.

and i hate rejecting friends (cousins included) but i realise recently i hafta.
there is only so much time. hmm but i'm guilty.
i'm trying to divide my time equally. tsk.

I'm looking forward to pizza and another movie this weekend.
If i finish my work beforehand.
I better start now since i have time. hmmm.

Adios ppl!
embrace life to the fullest!

Deception

So much deception we live in
why, i wonder

Many things aren't how they seem, i'm sure
so i'm keeping my fingers crossed and
hope, i hope that things would turn out alright.

Fact is, things always turn out just fine
in the nick of time.

Still, it's the sudden rollercoastery sensations
the sleepless nights, endless questions,
too-belated realisations,
that is paradoxically both interesting and torturous.

Many swear they want no share in these games,
but they really do.
I said i don't wanne have a hand too
did i mention never ever?
But right now, i'm in too.

And maybe, just maybe,
I'm ready again.

Yes, that was what i meant!
:)