as cryptic as possible because the time is not right

I can't decide if i should follow my instinct and leanings, or further mediate my actions and decisions.

Of course i have reservations, isn't the whole thing about a spontaneous leap of faith? But my faith feels ungrounded. Okay not totally ungrounded but not grounded enough. But if i feel that now is the time,why hold back?

Today is an eventful day. I went to teach my tuition kids (they are so adorable!) and then before i stepped into my gym my mom called and told me to go to factory to say hello because i haven been there for awhile (really! Not that i'm lazy to exercise. okay actually i am, so serve me right for being fat) , then accompanied my mom to go get her hair cut by my newfound hairdresser, before rushing for my facial appointment at AMK. Like that, and i'm tired already. So here i am typing this entry in the comfort of my home. Home sweet home indeed.

So anyway, the previous paragraph was not totally irrelevant,... My point is, despite being occupied, someone crossed my mind for a few times. Even though we weren't in contact much today. I'm not used to feeling like that. It almost feels like i've lost control of my heart.

I've never been a needy partner, because i believe firmly in each party having his/her own space. But this time round, i keep thinking of him. To the point of being clingy. Wtf? Me? Clingy? That's a first. If this is part of falling in love, than i certainly need to pull back and fall slower. Just so i am clear about where i'm headed.

I really dunno if i should be posting this. I guess i'll try. Will take this down if i get too many questions.

Before Liu left for Brisbane, the three of us buddies went for a walk at the bridge thing. I forgot what the name's called. But i rem we went past Henderson Waves. I really feel like talking a walk there tonight. I dunno if it's the place or the company i had the last time i was there. But i miss the place. I need that kind of serenity now.