Deception

So much deception we live in
why, i wonder

Many things aren't how they seem, i'm sure
so i'm keeping my fingers crossed and
hope, i hope that things would turn out alright.

Fact is, things always turn out just fine
in the nick of time.

Still, it's the sudden rollercoastery sensations
the sleepless nights, endless questions,
too-belated realisations,
that is paradoxically both interesting and torturous.

Many swear they want no share in these games,
but they really do.
I said i don't wanne have a hand too
did i mention never ever?
But right now, i'm in too.

And maybe, just maybe,
I'm ready again.

Yes, that was what i meant!
:)