thoughts.

People! I survived Wednesday!
omgomgomg.
haha.
i only managed to finish my abstract last night.
so i completed my essay during lunchtime today.
In like.. 45mins?
come on, worship me. lol.

Alright so i reward myself by giving myslf a little luxury of blogging.
i have some things to say.
No, i have alot of things to say.
but i have no time.

Firstly, Pris, wo ding ni!
pls don lose heart cus of ytd's match.
cus there are other things to look forward to.
alright?

This kinda links to what i wanna say.
life's not just about you and me
life's much much more.
right now i'm looking at things from broader perpectives,
and thinking on a larger scale.
The world is sooo big.
we're all kinda insignificant, if we wallow in self-pity.

Change.
life's full of changes.
Mr Mok, my Eng teacher in sec sch once said
"the only things constant in life is change."
yeapp. good or bad, we learn to accept and move on.

Moving on.
we make our own decisions, or sometimes decisions are made by others and we hafta follow suit.
but we accept them and we move on.
we get a life of our own.
eventually, we stop brooding, we do sth meaningful, and we are happy once again.
how happy u are is how happy u decide to be.
it' s true. i learnt it the hard way.

Hurt, anger, disappointment, pain, happiness, joy and the likes.
who doesnt feel these emotions?
everyone who's human does.
it's how u handle them tt defines the person u are.
for me, now, the whole world doesnt hafta know abt my emotions.
friends will understand if they will.
of cus, it's good to have friends around who understands.
but how many ppl will? like, really truly?
no one.
i do try to make ppl understand, den i realised no one would, totally.
and anyway i don have alot of time
so i deal with most things myself.

friendship. relationship. wadeva other ships.
stay within the perimeters.
and have faith. faith in ppl u treasure.
i have faith in my friends.
i was so sacred of losing them, earlier.
but right now.. i feel it's all fated.
there is no point in worrying
i'll only feel even more hurt in the process.
what will happen will happen.
i just want us all to be happy.

yes, it is this simple.
we need to be happy. all of us.
there is no right or wrong,
everything happens for a reason.
i know i haven been the best person on earth,
but at least i daresay i have nv done anything with e intention of harming anyone.
as for people who have hurt me, i forgive them and i move on.
simply cus it's easier on everyone.
and ppl make mistakes.
i do somtimes too.

i refrained from making too much comments until today
and even up til now i nv mentioned names,
it's cus of one thing... respect.
i respect everyone who is involved.
and i respect the issue enuff.
let's not tire everyone involved.

right now i am running. running away.
but no one needs to know wad i'm running away from.
cus i am still happy.
the rest, we'd talk abt it tml.
there will always be tml.
if my tml nv comes, den pls just rem me in a good light.
and no, it's not denial/apathy/displacement.
it's just.... right now there are more impt things to do.
i'm busy and i like my life this way now.

to the uncle at heart:
i give u wings to fly. tt's because i don believe in restricting anyone.
and besides i understand the nature of everything tt's happening.
because it's your life.
and, i know i have my own life to lead.
but i'm glad and thankful tt we understand each other.
true, with every choice comes repercussions/developments.
but it's inevitable. we live with it.
let's look at the big picture.
so long as u're gonna be happy, i'm fine.
really.
we're friends for life rem?

i try to be the best tt i can be, for everyone.
if i happen to not meet nay of ur standards, den i'm sorry but i tried my best.
I treasure all my friends, in my own way.
true friendship goes a long way.
so everyone of you reading this now, pls be happy.
it is simple.
(:

i've grown so much ever since.