MerryGoRound. MaryGoesDown.

Today, old friend told me this.

"coz u already haf so little time for me... If u're attached i can forget abt it liao..."

We were talking about how guys would not wanna lol woo me because i'm too much of a challenge so they will just treat me as a 'brother'. He says he feels the same way, that i'm not unattractive but i'm too daunting. Tsk. I retorted that in this case I need a confident guy, only a confident guy won't be afraid to challenge me. and oh, confident guys are so charming. :D

But so far i haven met one yet. He was like "hmm... good..." TSK! and his reason? The line above.

That led us to the most tiring topic on earth. One that both of us have seeked answers for so many times but failed. And we din't come to a conclusion, as usual. I have a simple one that will do both of us good. He doesnt seem to agree. He just keeps saying i don't understand what's in his mind. But if that's not what he wanted then why break all we had, why force me to learn how to draw lines last year?

This is like, i dunno. Why can't we just remain normal good friends? Because we are almost always implicitly asking each other the sacred question : What will happen if either one of us is attached to someone else. I used to ponder over this too. The one day the answer just came. Easy. We have to let go. Since we're never gonna be together as a couple, at some points of our lives we need to let go, not totally but at least space out. I know i'm hurting him. But someday we both will have to realise it's true. If he's the one attached, I'd have to let go too. And wish him luck.

Clarification. No one is getting attached now. It's just the topic popped up.

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