rough. tough.

yay! my stats counter is up! as of ytd! hmmmm.

it's tuesday! yiwen has no sch on tuesdays! haha this rock. well, the start of sch after recess was cheery. though it's obvious no one yearns to be back, we're all well-rested for the next lap. right fellow victims of education? lecture yesterday was great. except i almost broke my hands copying notes at lightning speed. heh. (:

do i sound happy now?

okay yesterday was shit. had a bad night. erm, personal stuff. sms-wars, tears, hugs, and truth. the truth. wooo it wasnt just my own stuff. but my sister's too. hmm i tink ultimately we all gotta be honest with each other. me to ppl whom i care about. her to her boyfriend. i hope she'll be alright. cus i am now. it was bad. my heart weighed like 20kg. there were so many unspoken words, but i just wun say them. i feel wad he doesnt know wun hurt him. love is not selfish possession. it's much much more. friendship too, is much much more, it's another story altogether. whe i was close to losing him, i realised friendship is more impt den anything else. and i haven forgotten that. eventually we both tried to make each other understand. then we closed the chapter. and life's liddat. think macro instead of micro. life's not just about me and my whims. it's also the ppl, not just him, but everyone else around me. so i gotta be strong, for him, for my sister, for everyone else. it doesnt matter if he still cant see my point now, cus one day he will. same for some others too. i'm only human, but i'd do wad i can. try my best and answer to my own conscience. i'm working hard. to make things better for everyone. this, my friends, is maturity.

okay my heart feels lighter now. aww it sucked last night. like i had to lug it around. it was so so heavy. roar.

right now i dunno if i shld start on my Public Admin or HL104 abstract. bah. haha. both are equally urgent. and oh no. tml i hafta stay in sch till wayyyy late. :(
wednesdays = stress.