mega love.

had an awesome time last night.
(:

struggled between right and wrong, black and white in the afternoon.
by evening decided to heck it and agree.
in the end i saw his rents'
totally unprepared but i survived.

life's short
haha cross over to the dark side.
i'm not so much preoccupied with right or wrong,
but whether anot i am doing things i like.
cus after all i bear all the consequences myself eh.
i drown myself and i pick myself up.

there were minor hiccups last night
but i see his sincerity
or i ought to use the word FEEL
and this time round when he says he's busy or got things to do,
i know it's true. cus he asks if i can wait for him. and he returns after finishing his stuff.
army changed him.
he's a whole lot more responsible now.
not to mention handsomer. ahaha.

let's not talk abt love now.
it's too heavy.
we'd talk abt emotions instead

i like being with him.
the stuff he says
the way he looks at me
the way he plays with my hair
the way he complains "your hair so short alr, don cut again ok?"
the way his puts his hand on my head and pulls me towards him him cus he was on the phone
the way we both comfortably walked toward our destination together in tt position
he way he insists my cranium has grown larger
the way he whines; his funny faces
the way he smiles
the way he pokes me and "where got fat?!"
the way he says "have ur main course first before ur dessert"
the way he looks at me and asks me if i'm alright
the way his face lights up when he is in the bowling alley
he smiles and shake hands and high five with the other bowlers
den explain to me "it's networking"
hmmm.
just the way he is

and more imptly, the way i am with him.

so yes.
i'd stay while it lasts.
life's short.
we'll talk about tomorrow later when there is a need to.

i realise i don expect much from him anymore
no sms is fine, cus i know he will call when there's a need to.
no contact is fine cus we matter to each other.
it's precisely this trust, this faith that was lost and now, found again
i found it last night.
actually 2 nights ago.

and i know.
what goes around comes around.
ahhh wadeva.

yay kbox with sharlot today!
den stardee.
haha needa catch up on my assignments.